hi,
by hook or by crook i have to post this week,
theres so much in my mind,
so the stuff below will be plain ranting.
bear with me.
First, i'll deal with myself first,
im left with bearly 22 days to prelims (including hcl),
and im not progressing.
I failed 3 common tests, and thats dam depressing.
I am really feeling dam fk now.
I feel like im a useless fker.
I'm trying to stay happy, but seriously i'll may just break down anytime.
Next,
its breaking.
Everything is so fragile,
touch and it'll be in pieces.
esp, in class.
i'll give you examples that isn't directed to anyone.
1. tell someone something, and the someone tell everyone and add colours,
you'll be bitched frequently and youll be the bad guy, but you didn't say
anything. i wont be sorry for you as the picked a wrong someone to
confide to, very wrong.
or maybe you are bad, just that i couldn't tell yet.
2. when you're immersed in happiness and fun, make sure you're
aware of the sad people around you. but when youve finally realised
the sad people around, it may be too late.
sad people should be happy, and join into the happiness, instead of staying
in the box of saddess and anger, perhaps life
would be much brighter and lighter then.
3. say you love me, then you say you love someone else the next minute.
and then people wonder why i cry everyday.
now people know, its not me, its you.
I'm a neutral party,
and not involved kay.
Just read and think,
and refrain from asking.
I'm off,
blackpeppercrab frantically waiting for my testimonial.
bye.